North Star . Z e n e r g y

Who is Brandon behind North Star Zenergy? 

I used to be skinny, insecure, doubtful, and a hopeless romantic.

I grew up with a typical black sheep story: constantly bullied and picked on, which led to feelings of neglect from my family, friends, and acquaintances. I was left feeling excluded, lonely, depressed, insecure, unworthy, emotionally crushed, and every other negative emotion you could describe. It may seem dramatic, but whatever the intentions were, I was sensitive, constantly in my head, and too young to take it any other way.

I quickly learned that I was the type of person to wear my emotions on my sleeve. I never allowed myself to see that as a weakness. After all, it was just me, myself, and my emotions. I started to use my emotions as a strength.

I grew up surrounded by drugs and alcohol. The crazy part is that hard drugs came into my life BEFORE alcohol. I started snorting cocaine and popping ecstasy pills at the age of 12. I started selling drugs at the age of 14. Being involved in the drug scene so heavily became my only outlet.

Needless to say, there was a lot going on. Looking back on my life, it's pretty insane that I'm actually here today, living and breathing.

I should be in prison or dead. But I'm not, and I'm so grateful to be healthy and happy.

I'm a firm believer that everything in life happens for a reason. Everything that happens is supposed to happen, exactly the way it happened. Maybe read that again.

I've come to learn that even though life has a course for us, we are still in control of how we respond.

Where did my confidence journey start? 

I was 16 years old when I saw Steve Cook on the cover of Muscle and Fitness Magazine. Like most people, my first reaction to fix my insecurity and low self-esteem was to get in shape. I dreamt of becoming like him, at least in terms of physique. My ultimate goal was to become a fitness model and be on the cover of any fitness magazine available at that time.

This happened in 2011, and I began exercising five days a week. However, I still had all the old habits from my previous lifestyle. Despite my confidence journey, for five years, I managed to get blacked out drunk every weekend doing keg stands and chugging Jäegermeister. I also attended raves and popped mollies every month, smoked a pack of cigarettes a week (which eventually turned into vaping), and binge-ate fast food multiple times a day, all week long. I was living the exact opposite of a healthy and confident lifestyle. I wasn't building confidence the right way.

Then, in 2016, I experienced a breakthrough moment. I got my heart broken, and as a result, went completely sober for four months. I channeled all my emotions towards my physical health, and I got absolutely shredded. I'm talking washboard abs. I became a certified personal trainer, started modeling, started bodybuilding, and my confidence took a considerable step forward. Life was good, but something was still missing.

Despite having all the physical confidence in the world, I couldn't get a date to save my life. I was building confidence on the external side, but I didn't have true self-confidence. I lacked the ability to overcome social anxiety and build real self-esteem. We often confuse self-esteem with self-confidence. Self-esteem is how much we value and appreciate ourselves, while self-confidence is how much we value and appreciate our abilities and skills.

I didn't figure out that confidence came from within until I took myself out of my hometown, Westminster, Colorado. I knew that shifting my environment was going to be transformative, but I didn't know it was exactly what I needed to become the person I was always meant to be.

Something happens when you move to an entirely new location. You encounter struggles and face new obstacles every single day. And when I say new, I mean everything is new. You can't even go to the grocery store without using your GPS. These kinds of things morph you. When everything is new, it triggers new thoughts. New thoughts lead to new feelings, and new feelings lead to new actions. At the end of it all, you receive new results. "Madness is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result." - Albert Einstein. These things morph you because you're constantly taken outside of your comfort zone 24/7. It's a truly exhilarating yet scary feeling all at once. This is also happening for the entire first year you've moved. I know because that's exactly what I experienced the first year living in Las Vegas.

This is where my true self-confidence journey began to skyrocket.

2019

I was hired to one of the best jobs I've ever had. I quickly worked my way up to a management position. The downside was that this place... it was a toxic environment. I was working 6 days a week and drinking heavily almost everyday. My mental health plummeted real quick. I was doing the best I ever had financially up to that point, but my quality of life really dropped.. I made the conscious decision to leave in 2021. When I did, I took 3 months off to completely work on my mental health. From here the results were phenomenal. So phenomenal that I became a life coach. What I had experienced the last 11 years of my life has been so expansive and life changing (literally) that I feel this urgency to give back to others. I wake up feeling so amazing everyday, how could I not want everyone else around me to feel the same? 

What is my mission? 

I'm here to help you tap into the highest and most confident version of yourself. I do this through helping you build emotional awareness, emotional intelligence, and practice mindful living.

I help you reach the lifestyle you've always dreamt of. 

North Star Zenergy is self compassion and self respect.

North Star Zenergy is grit and resilience.

North Star Zenergy is precision, clarity and sharpness.

Zenything is possible.